I struggle with anxiety and depression. There are days when I feel like I can’t get out of bed. There are moments that I let my past take over my head and drown me. There are days when I feel like I can never be as good as anyone else. Other days I feel almost happy. Days when I can feel like I can take on anything. The bad days always come back and stay longer than the good days. Lately, I have been trying to take steps and learn about how to grow and challenge myself as a person. The last couple months have been hard. My anxiety and depression took over for a while. I didn’t know what to do. One day I had enough. I started reaching out and trying to learn things that I could do to take better care of myself. I started a memory jar. Where I write down one good memory and day. I reached out and started talking to a life coach. I also started to try to check in with myself to see what is causing my emotions. It’s day by day process. Some days are better than others. I try to keep reminding myself that I am okay and how to take care of myself.
What it is about.
It’s trying to figure out how to gain your power of self back.
It’s about trying to figure out how to be your authentic self.
It’s about how to let people in and help you.
It’s trying to compartmentalize feelings so they don’t influence you.
It’s when you enjoy the little things when you need to.
It’s about taking the time to do the things that bring you joy.
It’s when you take the time to invest in self-care.
It’s about how on some days you don’t want to see people and that is okay.
It’s how you learn not to listen to your negative thoughts.
It’s accepting that sometimes you might fall and fail.
It’s about forgiving yourself when you do mess up.
It’s also when you get back up and face another day.
It’s about accepting that you are worthy of love and belonging.
It’s when you learn and accept that you are not broken.
It’s about loving yourself and knowing you don’t need to be fixed.
It may be easier said than done but it is worth the fight.
I’m still struggling but I won’t give up.