This past year has been turbulent. I learned a lot about myself and how I interact with the others around me. I learned about how to be more self-aware and where my feelings are coming from. A lot of the lessons were hard. I lost people in my life, but I became a lot stronger for it. I wish it was simpler. That things could just click and make sense and you know the right things to do instead of just guessing.
The reason why I’m looking back first is that I think sometimes looking back and where you have been can help you see where you can go. Not dwelling on the past, but remembering the lessons learned.
This year I’m looking forward to a lot. I am starting my internship in less than two weeks. Hopefully, I will be graduating from my master’s program. Those are the two simplest things that will be happening and that are easy to understand why I’m looking forward to them. They will both help me move closer to my future goals. It is another stepping stone in my path.
Something I’m looking forward to more is becoming dependent on myself in all aspects. I’m living solo this year, which is a huge step for me. Today I had to kill a yellowjacket by myself. I was freaked out, but I did it. It is something I would have never done before. It’s these little things that will continue to push me. I know it will be uncomfortable, but it will get me to be a better version of myself.