Learning to Be Alone and Happier for It

I haven’t been writing because I haven’t been knowing what I’ve been feeling or experiencing. I am so used to easily defining my life by my anxiety and depression… as some of you may be as well. If something is wrong, it’s either my anxiety or depression acting up. I warn oncoming people in my… Continue reading Learning to Be Alone and Happier for It

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Reclaiming My Identity Outdoors: Breakup. Anxiety. Depression.

After the breakup, one of the main things I was concerned about was how I was going to continue living my life outdoors. My ex was my adventure partner. He helped plan things. He challenged me. He took me places. Being in the outdoors became part of my identity, but without him - was I… Continue reading Reclaiming My Identity Outdoors: Breakup. Anxiety. Depression.

I’m Guarded, and I Hate it

Yesterday was the last day of school for a few weeks. I went out with all my coworkers. They call themselves family because that is what they are to each other. They are close. They are connected. Then there’s me. Still slightly on the outside. It’s not their fault. It is really mine. I don’t… Continue reading I’m Guarded, and I Hate it

Solo Adventuring With Anxiety & Depression

This past weekend I did a little solo adventure. It went as follows: 1. Saturday morning, woke up at 6:00am 2. Drove 3.5 miles to my hike 3. Hiked 5.5 miles 4. Went to local town - walked around and went to a brewery and ate a late lunch 5. Slept at a semi-sketchy hotel… Continue reading Solo Adventuring With Anxiety & Depression

Healing is a Process

It’s been two months. Two months since things changed. Two months since I had to reassess my life. I am doing well. Really well. I created friend groups. I have gone on adventures. I really love my job. I’m starting graduate school in a few weeks. On paper, my life is moving along. I am… Continue reading Healing is a Process

I Guess I Should Talk About Dating

Often times, when I’m writing or talking or working or even just existing, I think to myself “who do I think I am?” Because honestly, most of the time I’m winging it. I also don’t know how to pretend and I really wish I did. I wish I could pretend to be the cool, chill… Continue reading I Guess I Should Talk About Dating

Today, I am Proud of Myself.

Today I’m feeling proud. It’s not necessarily a feeling I’m used to. It’s not a feeling I really allow myself to feel. Recently, my anxiety has been high. Insecurity has consumed me. I cried. I wanted to run away from everyone in my life because I thought they would be better off without me. I… Continue reading Today, I am Proud of Myself.

I Am More Than My Anxiety and Depression (Though I Don’t Always Feel That Way)

Anxiety and depression come with a lot of feelings that I’m not a fan of. The feeling of waiting for the fall. When things are going well, you are just waiting for something bad to happen. Because of course, things can’t be going well for you. The feeling of never being enough, but also being… Continue reading I Am More Than My Anxiety and Depression (Though I Don’t Always Feel That Way)

Celebrate Your Growth

For me, it’s really easy to be harsh on myself. To tell myself that I should be doing more. That I should be farther by now. That I am a complete mess and failure. That my anxiety and depression are in control. Every time I have a slight moment of anxiety, I feel defeated. But… Continue reading Celebrate Your Growth

Anxiety. Depression. Ice Climbing.

First, I want to apologize for not writing an article in a while. I started a new job, and have been in invested in that and trying to find a new routine. I finally feel as if I have some type of footing, so I am hoping to be writing more!   Today, I really… Continue reading Anxiety. Depression. Ice Climbing.