I get one casual thought -”your birthday ‘party’ is going to suck, ” and from there it spirals. It goes down this hole of negative thoughts with the ideas of “you’re not worth it” or “you’re a burden, ” and it goes and goes. You start with thinking about your birthday, but then it connects… Continue reading Spiraling is the Worst.
My birthday is coming up in the next few weeks. It’s always a weird time. I never feel special enough to do anything for my birthday or try to get anyone to do anything for my birthday. Last year, up in Vermont, was the first time since high school that I did something semi-big for… Continue reading Birthday Anxiety
I always had a weird mentality of going on first dates. Everyone has some nervousness usually before you go on a date with a person for the first time – it’s pretty typical I think. I have been on my share of first dates. Sometimes anxious or depressive thoughts can easily take over a few… Continue reading He’s Probably a Psychopath: First Dates with Anxiety and Depression
From my posts, most people may think I’m not doing well when in fact, that is not the case. It’s just sometimes I get these moments or days when everything feels like it is falling apart. But I’m happy and doing better. I still struggle at times, but that doesn’t change anything. It doesn’t change… Continue reading I Promise You I Am Well
Here’s the thing, my mind won’t stop. You may think you know what I mean, but I’m really not sure that you do. I know that my anxiety brain takes over a lot. All these negative thoughts come swarming in. I try to do the work so that it won’t happen or I can move… Continue reading I’m a Burden, Unlovable, Obnoxious…So What’s the Point?
I used to write a lot, but then I heard other people’s written words and I believed my writing couldn’t come close to comparing. I haven’t a written a lot since. None of my words seems to fit what I wanted to say. I wanted to write about what I would do if I weren't… Continue reading Okay Everyone, I’m Stuck
Since I can remember, reading has been an outlet for me. Escaping into new worlds and learning from fictional characters. Recently, I have been reading more about mental health. Learning how others have dealt with their own struggles and how closely or not so closely I can relate to it. Fiction, Nonfiction, Young Adult, Activity… Continue reading Free Resource: Mental Health Books
Give me some fresh air. Let me have that moment on top of a mountain. The time when you do the thing you swore you couldn’t do. It’s when you go to bed happy after a long week of crying. It’s when you are surrounded by people you care about, and you feel at peace… Continue reading On Top of a Mountain
Sometimes it’s hard to feel like you are progressing. That you are moving beyond being a slave to your struggles, whatever they may be. My struggles are anxiety and depression. I’ve been working hard on not letting my anxiety and depression control me. I’m trying to come to terms with the fact, that they both… Continue reading Recognize Your Progress
Sometimes the future is scary. I become paralyzed wishing for it not to come. When there is so much happening, it is easier just to wish it away. To wish to wake up months from now and just know that you survived it. It’s when you have so much to do, but you don’t even… Continue reading The Future is Scary