In the last week or two, a lot of things are falling into place for me. Jobs. Writing. Living situations. Relationships. It’s working out. My life is a puzzle, and it’s finally coming together. I am happy. I have the typical everyday stressors that I can handle. There is also a lurking sensation of something… Continue reading Being Happy in the Present While Having Anxiety
The thing about relationships which is usually difficult for me - is that you can’t control the other person. You can’t always know what that person is feeling. You can’t always understand why the person does what they do. You can’t always dictate how they react. And you can’t change their past. A person comes… Continue reading Love. Baggage. Relationships. Anxiety.
So 2017 ended a few days ago - I know I’m late on the ball here but I want to do some reflections and then set some intentions for 2018. Reflecting on a past year when you are struggling with anxiety and depression, is strange. I see moments where I struggled and moments when I… Continue reading Reflecting and Setting Intentions. Mental Health Journey.
One of my biggest triggers with my anxiety and depression is becoming overwhelmed or being reminded of everything that I am not. Both of these are pretty common in my life. Being aware of these triggers in only the first step and they can easily influence each other. Everything I Am Not: Past Relationship I… Continue reading Let’s Take a Look at My Anxiety Triggers
I learned a few years ago that I didn’t want anyone to save me. I wanted to save me. I didn’t I want someone to solve all my problems. I didn’t want someone to “fix” me. I didn’t want someone to be my knight in shining armor. I wanted to be my own warrior. It… Continue reading What Happened When I Decided to Save Myself
I mentioned this so many times in my writing, the way that anxiety and depression often want to keep me hidden. They convinced me that they protect me from getting hurt. They convinced me that it is better to keep to myself. They convinced me that it is better for me if I stay small.… Continue reading Five Tools That Helped Me Not Let Anxiety & Depression Win
A little over a year ago I made a list of things I would do if I were brave. It was ten items long. The list included: cliff jumping, canyoneering, cliff jumping, riding a motorcycle, and backpacking. You can see the actual picture of my list to my left. Depression makes me not to want… Continue reading Moving Past My Anxiety & Depression: I’m a Brave Woman
Frankly, I’m tired. I’m tired of feeling like I’m not good enough. I’m tired of always worrying. I’m tired of never trusting anything but the negative. I’m tired of comparing myself to others and always coming out short. I’m tired of living in the past. I’m tired of holding on. I’m tired of feeling like… Continue reading When You Break
I still have moments of high anxiety and depression. I have to think of it every day and remind myself of what I need to do to control it. With that said, I am doing much better than where I was since I was twenty-one. Honestly - this is the happiest - or maybe a… Continue reading Today is my Birthday and it’s Weird
Everyone deals with struggles different ways, and that’s okay. Oh, my- how sometimes I forget that. When I struggle, I’m vocal. I’m not great at hiding away all my flaws. I’m not good at having people believe I’m okay. Sometimes I smile as a defense mechanism, but not all the time. So, when I feel… Continue reading Don’t Tell Me What to Do