I still have moments of high anxiety and depression. I have to think of it every day and remind myself of what I need to do to control it. With that said, I am doing much better than where I was since I was twenty-one. Honestly - this is the happiest - or maybe a… Continue reading Today is my Birthday and it’s Weird
Everyone deals with struggles different ways, and that’s okay. Oh, my- how sometimes I forget that. When I struggle, I’m vocal. I’m not great at hiding away all my flaws. I’m not good at having people believe I’m okay. Sometimes I smile as a defense mechanism, but not all the time. So, when I feel… Continue reading Don’t Tell Me What to Do
Last week, I was sick, and I acted like an asshole. You know when you’re sick, and you are just completely out of it? That thinking clearly is just way out of the picture. So add that to having anxiety and depression and already having a bad week. Never a good mix. I wrote a… Continue reading I Breathed to Live
My birthday is coming up in the next few weeks. It’s always a weird time. I never feel special enough to do anything for my birthday or try to get anyone to do anything for my birthday. Last year, up in Vermont, was the first time since high school that I did something semi-big for… Continue reading Birthday Anxiety
Here’s the thing, I sometimes get lost in everything. Becoming overwhelmed with everything happening. It makes me feel like I am alone, when I’m in fact I’m surrounded by loved ones. At times, it’s hard to understand why my mind so easily jumps to the worst possible conclusion in most situations. How much self-loathing can… Continue reading Thoughts, Thoughts – Go Away
From my posts, most people may think I’m not doing well when in fact, that is not the case. It’s just sometimes I get these moments or days when everything feels like it is falling apart. But I’m happy and doing better. I still struggle at times, but that doesn’t change anything. It doesn’t change… Continue reading I Promise You I Am Well
Here’s the thing, my mind won’t stop. You may think you know what I mean, but I’m really not sure that you do. I know that my anxiety brain takes over a lot. All these negative thoughts come swarming in. I try to do the work so that it won’t happen or I can move… Continue reading I’m a Burden, Unlovable, Obnoxious…So What’s the Point?
If I'm honest, I’m not your typical “yoga girl.” I have tried yoga in the past. Repeating the sun salutations gives me anxiety. I get bored doing the videos. I have gone to a yoga class, which was way too difficult for me (my fault), and I haven’t been back since. When I started reaching… Continue reading Restorative Yoga & Yoga Nidra for Anxiety and Depression
Give me some fresh air. Let me have that moment on top of a mountain. The time when you do the thing you swore you couldn’t do. It’s when you go to bed happy after a long week of crying. It’s when you are surrounded by people you care about, and you feel at peace… Continue reading On Top of a Mountain
I’ve been doing well lately, so that means I have less to write about. Or maybe it just means that I have to push myself to write more. That scares me. I love writing, but I use it to the most when I’m struggling. I use it when I have all these thoughts, and they… Continue reading I’m Feeling Well – Now What?