A few months ago I made a video for a family member for their wedding. I remember saying “but what the fuck do I know about love?” Maybe I still do not know anything. Maybe I fool myself into thinking I do. Since I was younger, I had a fantasy of love in my head.… Continue reading Love, Relationships, Anxiety, Depression
Hi All! So the past few months I participated in a program called Write on! with Mental Health CT. Here I had the opportunity to write more about mental health and share one piece around the state of Connecticut. I shared the piece I wrote below and also made a YouTube video of it because… Continue reading Anxiety & Depression My Journey
How do you know what the right decision is? How do you know what option is best? I have all these voices in my head telling me one thing or the other. Telling me what would be best for me or what would make my life a complete mess. Sometimes I can almost hear my… Continue reading Decisions When You Can’t Hear Your Own Voice
I trust that you will never intentionally hurt me. I trust that you will always have good intentions. I trust that I am worthy of you and you are worthy of me. I trust that even when I fall apart, you will still stay by my side. I trust that I will always be in… Continue reading I Trust I am Worthy and Enough
I went rock climbing the other day. I was wearing the whole outfit: helmet, harness, climbing shoes. I did this climb and had a hard time using my feet. I used my knees. By the end of the climb, I was bruised, scraped, cut with blood running down my legs. On the next climb, a… Continue reading Trusting is the Worst
You think you can't survive the pain. You sometimes don't know how you can make it through another day. But then you do. Then the days turn to weeks, and you keep getting stronger. The pain is still there, of course. It feels like a weak pulse in your gut. It's a constant reminder so… Continue reading Living Again
I get one casual thought -”your birthday ‘party’ is going to suck, ” and from there it spirals. It goes down this hole of negative thoughts with the ideas of “you’re not worth it” or “you’re a burden, ” and it goes and goes. You start with thinking about your birthday, but then it connects… Continue reading Spiraling is the Worst.
I always had a weird mentality of going on first dates. Everyone has some nervousness usually before you go on a date with a person for the first time – it’s pretty typical I think. I have been on my share of first dates. Sometimes anxious or depressive thoughts can easily take over a few… Continue reading He’s Probably a Psychopath: First Dates with Anxiety and Depression
Here’s the thing, my mind won’t stop. You may think you know what I mean, but I’m really not sure that you do. I know that my anxiety brain takes over a lot. All these negative thoughts come swarming in. I try to do the work so that it won’t happen or I can move… Continue reading I’m a Burden, Unlovable, Obnoxious…So What’s the Point?
I have this thing where I wish the world would speed, or slow down depending on the situation. In good moments, I obviously wish I could be at that moment forever as if I'm asking the world just to slow down because I finally feel okay. Then there are times when I can see the… Continue reading When I’m Not Up for Mindfulness