Recently, I have done a lot of “talk” about being okay being alone, which I am. I am truly okay with being single. Being single, however, is only one part of socialization and connection. I love doing things alone. I love having alone time. But I don’t love doing things alone or having alone time… Continue reading Abandonment. Loneliness. Anxiety.
I haven’t been writing because I haven’t been knowing what I’ve been feeling or experiencing. I am so used to easily defining my life by my anxiety and depression… as some of you may be as well. If something is wrong, it’s either my anxiety or depression acting up. I warn oncoming people in my… Continue reading Learning to Be Alone and Happier for It
I smile a lot. Sometimes I’m quite outgoing and can talk a lot and loudly. Sometimes I feel like I have to talk to everyone and include them. I reach out often. I do my best to invite others to events. People can view me as an extrovert. Sometimes when I tell people I struggle… Continue reading Talk and Show it All
eMost of my life I’ve been scared. I’ve been scared of sticking out of the crowd, of failing, of trying, of looking stupid, of dying. These fears hindered me and how I lived my daily life. In my first two years of college, I would simply go to class then go back to my dorm.… Continue reading When You Forget to Live
Finding proof for certain beliefs is easy. Take: “I am alone,” “no one understands what I’m going through,” “I am a weak person for feeling the way I am feeling,” and “this will never end.” People don’t like discussing something they are struggling with, especially when it can come off as weak. You look at… Continue reading Knowing You Are Not Alone
For the past three months, I haven’t been working. I had freedom. I explored Vermont. I traveled to Steamboat Springs and San Francisco. I moved to a new town. I dated. I was doing amazing. I started seeing a therapist last week. Even though I know I should see one, I almost felt like I… Continue reading Today I Struggle
I finally feel like I am at that spot in my life again The spot when I can breathe and reach out again Where I can open myself up again That I am good on my own – I like it even But I am also not closed off as well I want to do… Continue reading Wandering Self-Discovery