For the past few months, my anxiety and depression have been under control. I could handle the irrational thoughts. I could tell when I needed a break. I could tell when I needed some help. I thought I was finally an expert at handling my anxiety. That it could no longer sneak one past me.… Continue reading I May Be Doing Well, But I Still Get Anxiety Attacks.
Sometimes I wish I could go back in time to when things were easy. When the most difficult thing I had to figure out was a test in Calculus and if some dumb boy liked me. Now I feel like I have so much on top of my shoulders that I can’t give my energy… Continue reading I Am Not Always Strong with Anxiety & Depression
A little over a year ago, I hiked up to Tuckerman’s Ravine in winter. I was doing well, but once we reached the top, I was overcome with anxiety. I became angry and went into flight or fight mode for no reason. I ended up just leaving and hiking down myself without telling anyone. This… Continue reading Winter Hiking & Anxiety
I went backpacking for the first time this weekend, and I’m not quite sure how it went. Part of me is proud I did it. There were so many bugs, and we hiked 21 miles in two days. I’m impressed with myself. I got irritated once when lunch was awful, and I was exhausted, but… Continue reading Backpacking with Anxiety and Depression
My anxiety is not a fan of crowds of people. I went to Trader Joe’s the other day, and it took all my willpower to keep my anxiety under control. The tight aisles. The people were moving to get just want they want. I didn't know anyone. It’s a lot for me to take in.… Continue reading Billy Joel Concert: Positive Energy & Anxiety
When I experience a trigger, all hell breaks loose. I’m still not great at taking a step back especially when that trigger is fresh or touches the heart. When I mean that trigger is fresh or touches on my heart, is that it’s something that knocks on my core. Something that I feel as if… Continue reading I May Act Irrationally, But What I’m Feeling is Valid
Someone a few years ago told me: “I feel bad for anyone who ever has to date you.” Since then I haven’t been the same. I feel the guilt to this day for any person who “puts”up with me. You MUST be an angel for how can anyone honestly stick around for me? I screw… Continue reading “I Feel Bad for Anyone Who Ever Has to Date You.”
When I get lost in anxiety, nothing makes sense. Everything that happens is the worst possible thing that could happen. People could be doing things that are completely fine normally, but if I am not doing well at that specific moment, I will take in the wrong way. Some days, I stay in that situation,… Continue reading When my anxiety strikes…