Being Happy in the Present While Having Anxiety

In the last week or two, a lot of things are falling into place for me. Jobs. Writing. Living situations. Relationships. It’s working out. My life is a puzzle, and it’s finally coming together. I am happy. I have the typical everyday stressors that I can handle. There is also a lurking sensation of something… Continue reading Being Happy in the Present While Having Anxiety

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Anxiety No Longer Protects Me

No one enjoys getting hurt. No one enjoys having their trust betrayed. No one enjoys their heart breaking. But it happens. To all of us. One way or the other. Sometimes - people are resilient. They can take the pain, process it, and go on. To others, every tear creates a piece of wall that… Continue reading Anxiety No Longer Protects Me

Moving Forward Despite Anxiety & Depression

Anxiety tends to have me jump to the worst case scenario in everyday situations. We like to poke fun at this in memes - and don’t get me wrong they make me laugh every time. Like this one - it’s me, and I’m sure some of you.   But in reality, it’s not really funny.… Continue reading Moving Forward Despite Anxiety & Depression

I Am Not Always Strong with Anxiety & Depression

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time to when things were easy. When the most difficult thing I had to figure out was a test in Calculus and if some dumb boy liked me. Now I feel like I have so much on top of my shoulders that I can’t give my energy… Continue reading I Am Not Always Strong with Anxiety & Depression

How to Start Something With Anxiety and Depression

Starting anything can be hard. Starting school. Starting a relationship. Starting a new activity. Starting a journey. It all brings challenges, and those challenges can be what stops people from starting in the first place. The challenges of not knowing will happen with it. The challenge of not knowing what it will be like. The… Continue reading How to Start Something With Anxiety and Depression

I Wonder How People See Me When They Find Out I Have Anxiety and Depression

For a little over a year now, I have been vocal about my struggle with anxiety and depression. I write about it. I talk about it. I reach out to people about it. Friends and family know all about it one way or another. I don’t always speak with them directly about anxiety and depression,… Continue reading I Wonder How People See Me When They Find Out I Have Anxiety and Depression

Should Be There

I'm here. But I should be there I should have gotten better sooner  I should have figured it out sooner  I should have been present  I should have been there  Instead I'm filled with regret  With the coulds and the shoulds The what I would be doing now  It shouldn't have taken that shock  I shouldn't… Continue reading Should Be There

Trying Something Anxiety Has Stopped You From Doing in the Past

I grew up in a town in Connecticut where tubing down rivers is popular. It’s people’s favorite activity in the summer time, especially when it reaches over 90 degrees outside. My dad did this back in the day before it was commercialized. I have never done it. I always wanted to, but I never felt… Continue reading Trying Something Anxiety Has Stopped You From Doing in the Past

I Refuse to Rush Through Life

"I don't want to earn a living, I want to live." - Oscar Wilde In Vermont this weekend, my peers are presenting their master research and graduating with their master’s degree. Sometimes I think I should have been there this week, but I’m not. Sometimes I beat myself up over this fact. I think that… Continue reading I Refuse to Rush Through Life

Trusting is the Worst

I went rock climbing the other day. I was wearing the whole outfit: helmet, harness, climbing shoes. I did this climb and had a hard time using my feet. I used my knees. By the end of the climb, I was bruised, scraped, cut with blood running down my legs. On the next climb, a… Continue reading Trusting is the Worst