Backpacking with Anxiety and Depression

I went backpacking for the first time this weekend, and I’m not quite sure how it went. Part of me is proud I did it. There were so many bugs, and we hiked 21 miles in two days. I’m impressed with myself. I got irritated once when lunch was awful, and I was exhausted, but… Continue reading Backpacking with Anxiety and Depression

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Trusting is the Worst

I went rock climbing the other day. I was wearing the whole outfit: helmet, harness, climbing shoes. I did this climb and had a hard time using my feet. I used my knees. By the end of the climb, I was bruised, scraped, cut with blood running down my legs. On the next climb, a… Continue reading Trusting is the Worst

Okay Everyone, I’m Stuck

I used to write a lot, but then I heard other people’s written words and I believed my writing couldn’t come close to comparing. I haven’t a written a lot since. None of my words seems to fit what I wanted to say. I wanted to write about what I would do if I weren't… Continue reading Okay Everyone, I’m Stuck

“I Feel Bad for Anyone Who Ever Has to Date You.”

Someone a few years ago told me: “I feel bad for anyone who ever has to date you.” Since then I haven’t been the same. I feel the guilt to this day for any person who “puts”up with me. You MUST be an angel for how can anyone honestly stick around for me? I screw… Continue reading “I Feel Bad for Anyone Who Ever Has to Date You.”

Talk and Show it All

I smile a lot. Sometimes I’m quite outgoing and can talk a lot and loudly. Sometimes I feel like I have to talk to everyone and include them. I reach out often. I do my best to invite others to events. People can view me as an extrovert. Sometimes when I tell people I struggle… Continue reading Talk and Show it All

Recognize Your Progress

Sometimes it’s hard to feel like you are progressing. That you are moving beyond being a slave to your struggles, whatever they may be. My struggles are anxiety and depression. I’ve been working hard on not letting my anxiety and depression control me. I’m trying to come to terms with the fact, that they both… Continue reading Recognize Your Progress

Better Than Me

I have this habit of thinking that I’m the worst. I often feel sorry for the people in my life and the fact they have to put up with me. I feel bad for the friends who hang out with me, the people I work with, and my family for being stuck with me. That… Continue reading Better Than Me

A Letter to My Loved Ones

Dear Loved Ones, Trust me, I know I’m difficult. I’m hard to please. I jump to conclusions. I think I can mind read and predict the future, and it’s usually an awful future at that. I know these habits can be a self-fulfilling prophecy. I see what I have to do to change, but it… Continue reading A Letter to My Loved Ones