What Happens When You Hate Yourself

Today I am not a fan of myself, dare I say, I hate myself. Self-loathing is quite an awful thing to have because you are around yourself all the time. When you don’t like other people, you can at least escape. You can choose to not be around them, but when it’s yourself that you… Continue reading What Happens When You Hate Yourself

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Coping With Anxiety When You’re Busy & Exhausted

Okay everyone - I’m back. At least for the time being. Over the past month or so there has been so many things I have wanted to write. I just haven’t had time. I just started working full time at a job I love, but it’s also mentally draining. A week or two ago I… Continue reading Coping With Anxiety When You’re Busy & Exhausted

Why I’m Not Going to Pretend I’m Perfect

Social media is hard sometimes. I think most people can get that. We see what everyone else wants us to see. We see the perfect moment’s in their lives. The ideal couple shots. The exciting news. Looks when they are put together and look their best. Moments when they are happy. We don’t always hear… Continue reading Why I’m Not Going to Pretend I’m Perfect

Learning How to Flourish When Anxiety & Depression Knock You Down

Today is my 28th birthday. I can’t begin to explain how strange that feels. It’s easy to feel like I should be so much further in my life from where I am currently. I thought I might be settled in a career by now. I thought I would feel more like an adult than I… Continue reading Learning How to Flourish When Anxiety & Depression Knock You Down

Being Happy in the Present While Having Anxiety

In the last week or two, a lot of things are falling into place for me. Jobs. Writing. Living situations. Relationships. It’s working out. My life is a puzzle, and it’s finally coming together. I am happy. I have the typical everyday stressors that I can handle. There is also a lurking sensation of something… Continue reading Being Happy in the Present While Having Anxiety

Things I Cannot Control

Today I wake up and move forward. I talk to my therapist about things I can’t control.  I talk to her about what I can control.  It gave me an excuse to get out bed. So I will continue in this stride, with putting one foot in front of the other. Concentrating on everything that… Continue reading Things I Cannot Control

Losing Grip- A Poem

Sometimes I feel like the world is slipping through my hands. As soon as I get a grip on something meaningful I see it falling. As soon as I feel like I figured something out Something changes and I’m left confused. As soon as I’m happy, I feel life closing in. I expect the worst,… Continue reading Losing Grip- A Poem

Moving Forward Despite Anxiety & Depression

Anxiety tends to have me jump to the worst case scenario in everyday situations. We like to poke fun at this in memes - and don’t get me wrong they make me laugh every time. Like this one - it’s me, and I’m sure some of you.   But in reality, it’s not really funny.… Continue reading Moving Forward Despite Anxiety & Depression

How to Start Something With Anxiety and Depression

Starting anything can be hard. Starting school. Starting a relationship. Starting a new activity. Starting a journey. It all brings challenges, and those challenges can be what stops people from starting in the first place. The challenges of not knowing will happen with it. The challenge of not knowing what it will be like. The… Continue reading How to Start Something With Anxiety and Depression

Growing Pains

Last night, I had a chance to reflect. An opportunity to reflect on my life and my mistakes and the pain I have gone through. I realized that all this pain brought me to where I am today. Sometimes it really sucked. Sometimes I could explain the pain. There were easy explanations. Other times, I… Continue reading Growing Pains