Growing Pains

Last night, I had a chance to reflect. An opportunity to reflect on my life and my mistakes and the pain I have gone through. I realized that all this pain brought me to where I am today. Sometimes it really sucked. Sometimes I could explain the pain. There were easy explanations. Other times, I… Continue reading Growing Pains

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Trusting is the Worst

I went rock climbing the other day. I was wearing the whole outfit: helmet, harness, climbing shoes. I did this climb and had a hard time using my feet. I used my knees. By the end of the climb, I was bruised, scraped, cut with blood running down my legs. On the next climb, a… Continue reading Trusting is the Worst

Living Again

You think you can't survive the pain. You sometimes don't know how you can make it through another day. But then you do. Then the days turn to weeks, and you keep getting stronger. The pain is still there, of course. It feels like a weak pulse in your gut. It's a constant reminder so… Continue reading Living Again

The Days I Hate Me

Do you ever just hate yourself a tiny bit? Or maybe a whole lot? Maybe, everything feels awful, and there’s no point. That’s me today. A lot of stuff has been happening. A LOT. With work, school, personal life, and life in general. It’s a lot for me to take on. But I just don’t… Continue reading The Days I Hate Me

Trying is Exhausting

I’m not sure if people understand. For the most part, I don't know if others understand how much I’m trying. I can understand why it seems like I don’t. I fail a lot. I’m not sure if they understand what it is like when the anxiety and depression take over. How every fear or worry… Continue reading Trying is Exhausting