I tried to starve you away. I didn’t eat hoping my body would start eating pieces of you from me instead. I tried to wash you away. I showered wishing the water would clean you from me. But you’re so imprinted on me that it’s going to take more than a shower to get rid… Continue reading I Tried to Wash You Away
Today I wake up and move forward. I talk to my therapist about things I can’t control. I talk to her about what I can control. It gave me an excuse to get out bed. So I will continue in this stride, with putting one foot in front of the other. Concentrating on everything that… Continue reading Things I Cannot Control
Sometimes I feel like the world is slipping through my hands. As soon as I get a grip on something meaningful I see it falling. As soon as I feel like I figured something out Something changes and I’m left confused. As soon as I’m happy, I feel life closing in. I expect the worst,… Continue reading Losing Grip- A Poem
Sometimes I wish I was like a waterfall. Where I could just go with flow over the edge. Fall into the unknown with grace and fury. Instead I fight every moment. Trying to control the movement of my life. You see, I fight a lot. With my mind mostly. I fight the thoughts. The worst… Continue reading But I’m Like the Snow
Sometimes I wish I could be everything Because then I would never be nothing. Then I could never have competition. I could be everything you needed me to be. And more. I would never have to wonder about others Because they wouldn’t be better than me. If I was everything, then I could be happy.… Continue reading I Wish I Could Be Everything.
I'm here. But I should be there I should have gotten better sooner I should have figured it out sooner I should have been present I should have been there Instead I'm filled with regret With the coulds and the shoulds The what I would be doing now It shouldn't have taken that shock I shouldn't… Continue reading Should Be There
Tell me, how do I define my worth? Is it how many likes I get on social media? Or how much money I earn? Maybe it’s how special my job is? Perhaps it’s my education Well I don’t get many likes Or make any money – let alone have a job I never went to… Continue reading How Do I Know My Worth?
When it's 3am and I can't sleep My thoughts roam to the demons that rule this hour I avoid looking in mirrors I don't dare make too much At 4am the real demons come The ones that make sleeping impossible Am I doing enough ? Am I enough ? Is this the right path ? … Continue reading Late Night Thoughts
Do me a favor, please. I need you to see me for who I am striving to be. Don’t see me for the moments when I break. The moments when I fall apart. The moments when I succumb to insecurities. The moments when anxiety takes over. The moments when I want to disappear. See me… Continue reading Don’t See Me for the Moments
I’ll never be the one with the most chill photos Or the one who always looks nonchalant I will never be carefree I will never be the one with nothing on my mind Or the one who is climbing the highest mountains Or walking the longest trails I will never be that artistic Or the… Continue reading The One’s I’ll Never Be