I have ventured into the outdoors throughout the past few years. I have grown accustomed to trekking on trails, climbing up cliffs, and sleeping in tents. But I wasn’t always that way. For a long time, I never thought I was good enough to spend time outdoors for numerous different reasons. Anxiety kept me from… Continue reading Experiencing the Outdoors With Anxiety and Depression
When you’re in a relationship and living with roommates, alone time can be hard to come by. But when it happens, I cherish it. For some people out there, alone time is the time when you can gain energy back. It’s when you can truly be yourself and be happy. It’s when you can relax.… Continue reading When Having Alone Time is Difficult
I tried to starve you away. I didn’t eat hoping my body would start eating pieces of you from me instead. I tried to wash you away. I showered wishing the water would clean you from me. But you’re so imprinted on me that it’s going to take more than a shower to get rid… Continue reading I Tried to Wash You Away
I have struggled with jealousy of other women for a long time. It’s not something I’m proud of. I always felt that I needed to be the best, when I knew that I never could. If another woman was better at an activity, prettier, smarter - it put me down entirely - even if she… Continue reading Goodbye Jealousy. Hello Community.
Today I am not a fan of myself, dare I say, I hate myself. Self-loathing is quite an awful thing to have because you are around yourself all the time. When you don’t like other people, you can at least escape. You can choose to not be around them, but when it’s yourself that you… Continue reading What Happens When You Hate Yourself
Okay everyone - I’m back. At least for the time being. Over the past month or so there has been so many things I have wanted to write. I just haven’t had time. I just started working full time at a job I love, but it’s also mentally draining. A week or two ago I… Continue reading Coping With Anxiety When You’re Busy & Exhausted
In the last week or two, a lot of things are falling into place for me. Jobs. Writing. Living situations. Relationships. It’s working out. My life is a puzzle, and it’s finally coming together. I am happy. I have the typical everyday stressors that I can handle. There is also a lurking sensation of something… Continue reading Being Happy in the Present While Having Anxiety
No one enjoys getting hurt. No one enjoys having their trust betrayed. No one enjoys their heart breaking. But it happens. To all of us. One way or the other. Sometimes - people are resilient. They can take the pain, process it, and go on. To others, every tear creates a piece of wall that… Continue reading Anxiety No Longer Protects Me
The thing about relationships which is usually difficult for me - is that you can’t control the other person. You can’t always know what that person is feeling. You can’t always understand why the person does what they do. You can’t always dictate how they react. And you can’t change their past. A person comes… Continue reading Love. Baggage. Relationships. Anxiety.
Sometimes I feel like the world is slipping through my hands. As soon as I get a grip on something meaningful I see it falling. As soon as I feel like I figured something out Something changes and I’m left confused. As soon as I’m happy, I feel life closing in. I expect the worst,… Continue reading Losing Grip- A Poem